Living without Jade - Losing a friend
Its been about 2 and a half months since Jade died. Since all the hopes and dreams and joy and and connection I had with her, were buried, in a hole, along with my beautiful friend and they were gone. So now what? I can't continue to drift about like a rudderless boat. There is so much to be grateful for. And there is so much frustration, Jade and I had reached such a beautiful place. I could ride her where ever I wanted around the farm, with both of us completely happy and confident. We were ready to audition for Level 2. She had become such a confident learner. Everything was coming together. And then she was gone. I'm going to post this, even though it sounds so ungrateful and negative, its my genuine feelings and I have to feel them, and then I have to move on. I have to move forward